ever tried writing a testimonial for a sincere friend in a public forum ........ what do u write there that doesn't make u seem like a complete schmuck ....... do u fill in with artificial thoughts , light and made up reflections which i once vigorously did in the 10th std . [ remember those slam books] .............it makes my skin crawl when people write stuff like ' u 've been a lighthouse of emotional guidance to a storm tossed mariner like me...' lolzzzzzzzzz............
the other day was going through a quote -' as a child we can't wait to grow up and fall in love and when we finally do we realize that wounded knees were easier to heal than broken hearts.' no amount of cigs and booze can make u feel better........... yesterday i cried myself to sleep ..... 3 bars of chocolate , one pet bottle of thumps up didn't make things better ......... instead woke up in the morning with guilt pangs of adding to my ever expanding waistline.....
rest-starved , over-worked with an ever irritated nervous system,punctuated with bouts of jimjams which leave me reeling........ who is to blame for it ? me ? him ? his job? my moodswings? naah blame it on the delhi -heat................
i love calling him ' babu ' ,' shona' , tota ----- apellations which he treats like profanity . yet i persist ............love him ..........